friends are like walls


i’m pleased to report the successful completion of 10 rounds of chemotherapy.  this was the first round in a very long time i tackled without the assistance of the parentals.  i’ll admit that i was a little nervous going into it.  those long hours of feeling too drugged up to drive anywhere or do anything meaningful/productive can wear on you if you’re alone.  but i felt confident that i had enough friends scheduled to help out, bring me food and keep me company.  there were moments of missing my mom.  there were moments (as there always are during chemo, no matter who’s around) of feeling lonely and scared and sad.  and, of course, i felt the physical effects of the drug cocktail:  jittery, nauseous, exhausted, nauseous, wired, nauseous.  but overall, i felt calm and cared for and comfortable.

and i felt — and continue to feel — unbelievably fortunate and grateful to have the best friends a girl could ever hope for.  what the sign below says is true.  whether i’m physically by myself or in the company of another person, my friends have given me the amazing gift of knowing that you’re there. 

thank you for the texts, the emails, the facebook messages, the hugs, the late-night phone conversations.  thank you for letting me lean on you so very often.  but more than anything, thank you for just being there.  i love you all!

a “fortune”ate piece of advice


i’ve been a little disgruntled over the past few years as chinese takeout fortunes have morphed from silly-and-fun predictions like “you will enjoy 50 years’ good luck” to vague and confusing sayings like a recent one i got: “you will be in the best position.”  wtf does that even mean?

yesterday’s lunch yielded a good one though.  (see above.)  i think it’s actually more of a “fortune” than most other ones i’ve seen to date because, if i’m able follow its sage counsel, it could actually turn into a self-fulfilling prophecy!  the more myself i’ve allowed myself to be lately, the more wonderful i’ve felt.  now, all i need is a little more practice to drive the message home.

this fortune was also a good reminder that the right messages and reminders will cross your path if your eyes are open and you’re open to receiving them.  now, go forth, and be yourself!

life is uncertain; eat dessert first


loved this sign (and all the throwback signage) at the new(ish) santa monica place market.  the message was particularly timely since i’d just had diddy reese as a pre-dinner snack!

a simple idea, but an important reminder to each of us that we don’t know what life will place in our path tomorrow.  what better time than the present to be ourselves, pursue our passions, experience meaningful connections with others…and EAT DESSERT?

don’t feed the bad wolf


This story is one that has resonated deeply with me throughout my journey thus far, and I’m sharing it in the hope that you’ll be able to draw strength and courage from it, too.  (Thank you so much, Katie H., for sharing!)

An elderly Cherokee Native American was teaching his grandchildren about life…

He said to them, “A fight is going on inside me, it is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One wolf is evil—he is fear, anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, competition, superiority, and ego.

The other is good—he is joy, peace, love, hope, sharing, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, friendship, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.

This same fight is going on inside you, and inside every other person, too.”

They thought about it for a minute, and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win, Grandfather?”

The Elder simply replied, “The one you feed.”